Many years ago, when I was in 10th grade, we had to do a “pig lab” in which we dissected a baby pig. As a sensitive 13 year old, this horrified me and I spoke with my Biology teacher about how I would rather not participate. To which he replied, “Do you eat bacon?” The next day I became a vegetarian. By the time I went to college, 4 years later, I became actively anorexic.…

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The best rewards I get in my work come when my clients give it back to me. After group the other night a client of mine A.A. wrote me about choice, about changing herself, about changing the world. She changes me…. “There’s this way in which human beings desire to be a part of something bigger. It is why we, as humans, are so vulnerable to societal pressures, fashion trends, or advertisements. We are programmed…

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In the process of creating my new website, I stumbled upon lots of recovery articles that I had written years ago. So, I decided to start an article series on this blog called "Blast from the Past." And here is the first one! I wrote "The Amateur" back in 2005. Today, so much has changed in my life. Here are just a few examples: 1. I am engaged to be married: I was wrong with…

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I never wanted to be known as the girl with the eating disorder. And now I’ve got a book with chapters and paragraphs and sentences stating that I am that very girl, the one who starved herself from the ages of nine until 13. And nine? People ask. Why so young? But I tell them, I didn’t feel nine. I felt very, very old. And sometimes it’s hard to remember (as I put down words…

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